It's a good thing that blogspot doesn't allow us to record and post screams and yells, because my blog would have been flooded with that if it does.
Today was a day mixed with thousands of feelings, but I guess the day ends nicely.
I used to doubt people's promises. I doubted whether they meant it when they promised. I doubted whether they would fulfill whatever they promised. There have been, not one but more people, breaking their promises to me. And so it was hard for me to trust people. As a whole. But someone changed that, and I just realised it today. Because I trusted her promise, I am able to control my emotions and be the rational me. Yes, she changed me in a way and I am grateful that Allah sent her to me.
Tarbiyyah also changed me a lot.
Narshiela Saad now is different from Narshiela Saad three years ago. Thanks to Poland. Thanks to all my sisters in islam here. Thanks to my beloved housemates. Thanks for the usrah every week; the daurah and the jaulah. Most importantly, to Allah who led me to this path.
I changed. And I'm happy with the changes. Alhamdulillah. I want everyone that I love to feel what I've been feeling. Allah, please guide them to You.
"If Allah desires good for someone, He gives him understanding in the deen. Knowledge is gained by learning." -hadith Bukhari & Muslim.