Tuesday, December 30, 2008

saye bacee....



aku curik2 on9 kat library nih...


haha....klas lmbt lagi,kol 2...so,kte buang mase arr dulu...


kawan2,saye baru abes baca angels n demons....


swonok gle!!!!wargh....


ambigrams dia so so damn cool maa!!!!


sayangnye nk on9 ni x expect dari awal,kalo tak ley tunjuk ambigram lam buku tu....huhu....


sgtlah smart n smart n smart!!!


tp bile aku tunjuk kat housemate aku,diorang tak rasa amazed pown..???


huhu....nape???
pic kat atas tu aku copy dari internet je,x clear sgt...kalo korg mampu,pusingkn
kpale korg so that korg pandang gamba tu upside down..
what did u see???kalo gne laptop,tonggengkan je laptop tuh...hihi...
i found it amazing!!!maybe sebab aku baru je tau kot...huhu...
x saba tungu cte dia dis 2009....




Sunday, December 28, 2008

haha....aku wat gila!!!
bengang sgt ari tu kuar mid valley fizah n nada tak jadi...
tungu syazana,yuyu n farah melantak kat domino,aku g lepak sorang2 kat mph...
haha...dan inilah hasilnya bila tiada sesiapa yg mengawal aliran keluar kewangan aku....
heheh....abes dwet aku rm70.80...
selamat la aku tak jumpa deception point,kalo tak seratus lbey dwet aku abes...
emm,,,xpela...at least bknnya aku beli bnda bkn2...
heheh...tp khabar ini belum lg sampai ke perlis...kalo bapak aku tau,ntah la pe jadik...
pape pun,kucai pya pasal ar ni,sape soh promote kat aku....
tp still worth buying la...i can see absolute different dgn sydney sheldon's yg aku tergila2 sgt dulu...
huhu....
what can i say???best best best!!!
cuti krismas sampai awal muharam 5 hari aku abeskan dgn membaca...haha...
housemate suma balik,tgl aku sorg kat umah,watpe lagi...
hehe...hari2 aku tdo,bgn,dgr mp3,makan,mandi,sms,bkak laptop,reading...yeah!!!
digital fortress da abes tp bg aku,tak thrill sgt...angels n demons in progress...once again pasal christianity...
kalo da vinci code aku tau pasal knight templar,this one pasal hassassin...
k2,tanak cte lbey2...hik3...daa...

tag dari mashi apple afiq


hoho....serangan 3 penjuru ek afiq...???!!!siot gle korg....x aci...aku jwb tiga2 skali la...haha
1.What is the relationship of you and him/her?
tiga2 kawan aku dari jenan sampai skg n mtk2 sampai bla2
2.Your 5 impressions towards him/her
mashi:baik,sweet,suka pegang tgn aku kalo ktorg jln sme2,she's his,future engineer hopefully
apple:baik gak,tp slalu angau,suka kutuk aku,sengal dan mangkuk,tengku hussein to be...haha
afiq:baik gak la,dah jauuhh...hehe,future engineer gak hopefully,erk,nape tade idea ni???aiyaa....
3.The most memorable things he/she had done for you
mashi:educamp 2007....i felt so damn close with u...
apple:aku tak penah ckp tepon lame2 except wif this guy....
afiq:aku tak penah iron baju mana2 boy jenan except mamat ni
4.The most memorable things he/she have said to you?
can't remember arr...byk sgt....tp kalo apple,maybe sengal...haha
5.If he/she become your lover, you will...
mashi:tobat byk2,dosa besar nih...haha
apple n afiq:wonder,what actually happen to my heart already???malfunction???
6.If he/she become your enemy, you will...
juz telling myself i'm dreaming...haha...mtk jauh arr...
7.If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on...
mashi:improve ur masculinity then...wahahaha....
apple n afiq:pe ek...???tungu la kalo jd btol2 baru aku pk...hak3
8.If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
mashi,apple,afiq:takdir arr kot kan....
9.The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
mashi,apple,afiq:nk sgt spend time together cam dulu2...heheh...gelak sme2....
10.The overall impression of him/her is...
they are friends everyone on earth worth having....trust me...hihi
11.How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
ask them la,wat pe tanya aku...aku tak ley baca fkrn org cam edward cullen tuh...huhu
12.The character of you for yourself is?
sensitive
13.On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
aku manusia malas
14.The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
kalo ley,tanak hipokrit...but can i?
15.For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
i care and love u too....hihi
16.10 people to tag:
ala...sape ek???
1.tag balik mashi...
2.tag balik apple...
3.tag balik afiq...
4.subaili
5.suhaimi
6.safia
7.bob
8.dolly
9.kucai
10.kak ili
17.Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
err...tade sape2 kot...but he's obviously having a crush rite now..
18.Is no. 3 a male or a female?
male
19.If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
haha....can never imagine it...
20.How about no. 5 and 8?
they dn't even know each other...lagipun,dolly's his...
21.What is no. 1 studying about?
engineering
22.Is no. 4 single?
aku rasa cam single je...tatau arr kalo dia rahsiakn ke..
23.Say something about no. 6
revorianz,dulu umah cendekia,currently studying kat mmu,a penangite,my friend of cos...

Sunday, December 21, 2008

...prob...prob...prob....

...dammit...
aku ada problem ke???
tak,aku takde problem,tapi ada orang yg ada problem...
problem dia wat aku rasa cam problem aku gak...
so bila aku rasa problem dia tu cam problem aku,maknanya aku pun ada problem gak la...
betul tak????
tapi aku nak watpe???
kalau pun aku rasa tu problem aku tapi aku tak ada kena-mengena,sebab problem dia tu bukan problem dengan aku...
so nape aku tergedik-gedik nak amik tau???
aiya,problem problem...
nak wat cne ha???
takut2 nanti problem tu akan timbulkan lagi problem yg lain...
ish,tanak arr...aku tanak ada problem ngan dia...
so cmna ni???
emm...nak letak gamba tapi tatau nk bubuh gamba pe...
so aku pilih some of my collections...
yg sentiasa membangkitkan rasa rindu...
n wat aku sedar, RINDU ITU INDAH...haha


newly weds abg saiful n kak nini wif beloved father n stepmom...bukti aku tak reti amik gamba...cian kak nini n abg saiful tgl half...rindu kalian...
nephews n nieces wif abg ein....u guys are so damn great arr!!!ikmal,izan,ikram,lissa,lis...

recent pic taken by me kat mid....swonok hangout ngan korang...yuyu,farah,speko,nada,zul,apple...


korang la the best!!!!a bunch of thanx sebab dtg umah aku ritu...aku kawen nt korg kna dtg lg tau...haha...acoi,azwan,nasir,faris,syafiq,anam,eddie,popo


3 out of my 4 greatest bestfriends....i love u all so much...thanx 4 every single thing...as,asiah,nad...
+++banyak lagi gamba nak letak...tapi nt2 ar ehh...hehe....+++


>THE END<


Thursday, December 18, 2008

gosh gosh gosh and gosh!!!!!
that's all i can say....
juz finished reading the twilight saga;twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn...
with midsem ahead,i juz can't look at any other things except that!!


hmm...what can i say???
breaking dawn maybe the best compared to the previous three...
but as usual,typical fairytale with a 'live happily ever after'...
i would prefer if bella and edward were dead...
still a happy ending, (as bella said,as long as she was not separated from his edward,its still a happy ending)
but i'd prefer that maaa....
and as if nessie got a real power, i was attracted to her too...
she's soo damn cute laaa.....even i dn't hv the slightest idea how did she look...
i love the way she called bella 'momma', edward 'daddy' and charlie 'grampa'...
i love the vampires after all....
i kinda dislike the human bella,how can she fall in love with jacob???
hmm....but creds to stephanie mayer....
i loved sheldon's more but i never cried even in one of his 18 novels....
but this one,gosh...
u have to read it for urself, then u'll know....

don't juz wait 4 da movies....

coz words always convey the best...

hihi....

enough for now....daa....




Saturday, December 6, 2008

out to mid valley....

remaja gemar membaca
weeeee~

hohoho...


got nothing much to say....
juz that, i enjoyed myself soo much!!!!
haha....
thanks to u,friends 4 hanging out together....
thanks to farah,buying tickets 4 us....
thanks to nada,gelak2 bersame....
thanks to uu,ur yummy2 nugget....
thanks to apple,4 having 'rezeki lbey'...
thanks to zul,for DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT MSU STANDS FOR...
thanks to speko,for ur 'very3 gentleman + full of chemistry attitude'...
haha....
n thanks to u all, for ur rm2.05,rm2.10,rm2.25 and bla bla bla...

Monday, December 1, 2008

weeee~

ini bontot kuda ye kwn2...
ni la roomate aku,azhani....

...alang,adik & achik...


best buddies forever...shiela,shida,alyaa,dieba,az...



weiiii...
cye tak...
aku baru je blk dari kem ibadah....
haha....
lawak ar plak aku g kem ibadah kan...
bkn nk kte aku jahat...
tak,aku baek what...
ekeke~
emm....
tatau nak cte pe la...
windoo sgt kawan2 neh...
agaknye pe la kowg ngah wat skg ek???
k2,berbalik pd topik asal...apa aku dapat ek kt sana??
  • penderitaan yg amat3 sgt bila tade ayer...hoho...seksa gle dowh
  • mind massage....dapat,but dunno aku akn amalkan ke tak...hik3
  • rase sgt rapat ngan roomateku..."hartamu hartaku jua..." (^_^)
  • tgkp gamba bontot kuda...haha
  • dapat sakit kaki..huhu
  • dapat tgk ikan besa...kat situ byk org mancing....
  • dpt jwb soklan ni..."apakah ciri2 sahabat yg anda inginkan??? apakah perkara yg anda benci pada ibu dan ayah anda??"

k ar,malas nk merepek dah...papai everyone!!!


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

salam semua...

ya ALLAH ya TUHAN...
aku tak tau apa jadi kat aku skang wei...
aku rasa cam bukan aku yg ngah kawal diri aku...
astaghfirullah....
recently, slalu gle aku rasa tension...
slalu gle aku nangis sampai mata bengkak2...
aku sendiri pun pelik pehal yg aku jadi camni...
kalo nangis sebab benda serius takpe gak, ni sebab hanger patah pun aku melalak dekat stengah jam...
aiyo....what is actually happening to me???
unstabilized hormonekah???nah,berminggu2 aku jadik camni takkan la sbb tu...
penat je blaja health science, blaja pasal stress, aku tak aplikasikan pn...
apa yg jadi ni wei???
tolon....tolon....huhu....
susah aku nk tenangkan diri balik...
kerana hablumminallah ke???
astaghfirullah...
kalo aku sdey, surah al-insyirah,ayat 6,7 n al-baqarah,ayat 286 je yd dapat bg kekuatan kat aku...
tu pun tetap aku tak ley tahan dari nangis...
tgkp leleh btol la aku ni...
aiya....
stresss!!!
maaf ye nad...maaf ye diba,maaf ye az,alyaa....kalo stress mesti mood pn swing..
ceyt tol la....

Saturday, November 15, 2008

it's another day....


wif my anak sedara tym raya ritu...sje nk letak this pic...

i cried today....
missing someone like crazy....
i dn't know what is really wrong with me...
i read hlovate's the whole morning...
and there's some values i found in there...
i don't usually go for novels for this kind of things...
i read for my satisfaction...coz of my passion...
but once i read hers (i think it's a she),
i felt different...
what arr actually???
relief???

Saturday, October 18, 2008

..the road not taken..

....assalamualaikum....
nadirah hasanah osman....
hari ni aku rasa lain macam....
dulu,aku pernah gitau kat diri aku, aku tak nak pilih the road not taken...
aku nak hidup besa cam orang lain....
blaja,keja,kawen,and aku nak abdikan hidup aku pada famili aku...
tapi recently aku rasa cam aku dah salah...
dulu,aku taknak ambik medic...
tapi atas desakan famili, minat tu sket2 muncul and akhirnya aku pilih gak utk ke arah tu....
sejak akhir2 ni,1 persoalan slalu muncul kat otak aku...
"have i chosen the road not taken..??"
kdg2,aku nyesal,y not aku trima je dulu offer civil engineering kat utp??
tp dah xda guna aku nyesal skrg kan nad,i've crossed the point of no return...
aku dah pilih satu jalan yg sukar,and reluctantly i've to go through it...
selama ni,aku idamkan kehidupan yg sederhana,sbb aku sedar aku perempuan biasa...
perempuan yg hanya impikan kehidupan sederhana dan hidup bahagia di samping keluarga...
tapi saat ni,aku x nampak masa depan yg aku impikan...
lagi2 aku tak nampak apa yg akan aku kecap, apa yg sedang aku kejar...
aku hilang matlamat sebaik saja aku pilih this road not taken...
honestly,i don't wanna be extraordinary...
i juz wanna be an ordinary gurl who lives her life to the fullest...
is that too much,nad???
i kept thinking the whole morning...
aku tak boleh ubah apa2...
even impression aku,even pemikiran aku wat masa ni...
aku yakin,apa yg aku rsa ni akan terus membelenggu aku sampai tiba satu saat kalau Tuhan izinkan,aku nampak hasil pada usaha aku...well,if any...
so,i came to a decision...
like holly kennedy in ps i love you,i will juz live my life for the time being...
aku nak ikut rentak kehidupan yg dah tertakdir utk aku...
aku akan cuba bertahan till the end,sampai aku rasa "i'm finished!!"
and aku nak terus menyayangi org2 sekeliling aku while i'm still able...
bapak aku,tok,ein,kak nini,abg e,kak ieda,lis,lissa,wa bariah,wa chah,ba am,paksu,maksu,maktih...
including you,nadirah...
a friend who is already more than a friend...
thanks for everything everyone....

Monday, October 13, 2008

...a journey...

my few collections...still ten to go...

"life is like a novel, it's filled with suspense. you have no idea whats going to happen until you turn the page...."-adapted from Otto Schectels's advice to his 17-year-old son,Sidney. Well, personally,i shoul;d thank Otto for his advice. because of him, i am now able to read 18 novels + 1 biograpbhy of my favourite author, Sidney Sheldon. If the old Otto was not at the right place at the right time, young Sidney must had managed to commit suicide.i have juz finished reading The Other Side Of Me, a story of his own life, made into a 440-pages novel. And i couldnt stop myself from admiring him. i love all his books, and i felt so special to go back through time for his adventures of life. i felt closer to him, and i wished i could tell him this.

i was first introduced to him when i read The Best Laid Plans and i immediately fell in luv with it. A story of love,power and revenge of William Russell and Leslie Stewart. i met Dana Evans in it, which happened to be one of my most admiring characters. i read Rage Of Angels then, and i was stunned by Jennifer Parker's determination. How can a woman be as tough as her?? The third is Bloodline, again, it was a story of a young woman, Liz Roffe, being dragged into a full-of-disguise world when his beloved father accidentally died. i fell in luv with this one too, Sheldon's descriptions of everything were juz so great! Then, it was If Tomorrow Comes...the one that i luv most, the one that i could say influenced me most. As if it was Sheldon's trademark, most of his novels were lead by women characters, so was this one. AND this time, it was Tracy Whitney, about her courage, her determination, her hard works to be tough to the world that has been tough to her. its not until after about a year that i found out, one of the incident that happened to Tracy in the novel was a real incident in Sheldon's life.

i read Are You Afraid Of The Dark? after that, life of two widows, Kelly Harris and Diane Stevens, being hunted after their husbands' mysterious deaths. Tell Me Your Dreams introduced me to a psychological disease called multiple personality disorder, where there are alters exist in a host. Nothing Lasts Forever was also my favourite, coz its about medical life! (excited reading this one, dreaming already i've belonged to that world...haha). It was about 3 doctors who were also friends but facing different experiences and fates; Paige Taylor, Kat Hunter and Honey Taft. The Other Side Of Midnight is the next, a story of.....well,can i say a square love??? Regarding 4 persons, Constantin Demiris-who loves Noelle, Noelle Paige-who loves Larry, Catherine Alexander-who also loves Larry and Larry Douglas-who loves women!!! Memories Of Midnight was a continuation of TOSOM, but focussed on Demiris's and Catherine's life.

The Naked Face is Shelson's first novel, about Judd, a psychiatrist whom someone anonymously was trying to murder. i read A Stranger In The Mirror then; sorry to say but among all his books, i took the longest to finish this one and its hard to admit that i quite disliked this one...haha....its about Toby Temple who was a world-famous comedian and his wife, Jill Castle that kept a painful secret. Master Of The Games was also among the best, i reckon...but i could hardly recall the names of the characters, except for the leading one, Kate Blackwell. a story of 4 generations (if i'm not mistaken) of Blackwell's family. Windmills Of The Gods again focussed on the courage of a woman, Mary Ashley who was being sent to Romania as the US ambassador. The Sands Of Time was one of my favourite too, about 4 nuns-Megan, Theresa, Graciella and Lucia and their thrilled experience with Jaime Miro, a so-called terrorist in Madrid.

Then is The Doomsday Conspiracy, i couldn't wait to read this one at first coz its one of the first books being recommended by Kucai!!(^_^)
it turned out to be satisfactory, but i could say this novel ran a little bit from Sheldon's trademark. its about Robert Bellamy who was ordered to investigate on a crashed UFO, juz to find out at the end that his investigations led to a serial murder and he was also on the list! The Stars Shine Down introduced me to Lara Cameron, who enslaved her life only to her career. i have also forgotten the characters in Morning, Noon And Night except for Harry Stanford. it was a story of the cold war of stanford's sons and daughters to inherit his million-worth wealth. The last one is The Sky Is Falling. remember i mentioned earlier about Dana Evans?? she appeared again in this one, investigating a murder case as a young capable reporter.


wow, thats a lot i've written this time!!!haha....Thank you, Sidney Sheldon for all your novels. Thank you for creating Dana Evans; from her i got the courage to always stand strong for what we believe even if the world was against us. Thank you too for your Tracy Whitney; from her i learnt that there's always a bright and beautiful dawn after a dark night. Thank you again for introducing me to Paige Taylor; which realised me that meaningful life is not juz about starting a whole new thing, but its also about having the guts to face an ending. You also introduced me to many parts of the world, i could say that i appreciated atlas more after reading your books. Now i know where are Bucharest, Kiev, Sarajevo, Sardinia erc....i seemed an idiot right now writing this but its all true!!! Most of all, thank you so much for your memorable stories that i'm definitely sure will be long-remembered...


...THANK YOU MR SIDNEY SHELDON...



Wednesday, September 17, 2008

capeknyeerrr....

hmmm.....final da dekat larr....ari jumaat ni je stat....
aku cam besa stil bermalas-malasan cam kat jenan dulu...
aiya...huk3....stil ska tdo,main2...pe la nk jadik ni....cne nk brubh eh????ley ke aku brubah....huwaa.....kawan2,pray 4 me ok....doakan keberubahan aku dan kejayaan aku...hoho....

Monday, September 15, 2008

cian mashi...da lame dia tag aku..huhu

What does your name say about you?" .[ and do tag people after you are done! ]

A : You like to drink.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to eat.
E : You like to play with cat.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks.
I : Easy to be with.
J : People Adore you.
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Everyone loves you.
M : Best kisser ever.
N : Best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
O : Easy to fall in love with.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : You're loyal to those you love.
S : Fuckin crazy.
T : Awesome kisser.
U : You really like to chill.
V : Awesome in bed
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You love sports.
Y: Best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z : Always ready.


N:best bf/gf anyone could ask for
*yeke???hik3...so jadikan la ku gfmu...ngehehe...
A:you like to drink
*err...drink???drink water adela....huhu
R:you're loyal to those you love
*of coz,it's a must...coz i do appreciate them...(^_^)
S:fuckin crazy
*crazy..?erk,ade kot...hik3
H:you have a very good personality and good looks
*people judge me bout this...i hv no rite...heheh...
I:easy to be with
*i do hope so too maa...
E:you like to play with cat
ha..????ni tipu!!sah dah nipu nih benda ni!!!!
L:everyone loves you
*yeah,i luv everyone tOo....
A:you like to drink
*bape kali nk ckp???drink water suka la...aiya!!!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

jenanians kat kampung baru...


waaaaa.....swonoknya semalam....huhu....kuar bkak posa ngan dak jenan....best gle!!!x rugi aku wat brani kuar sorg2 dari shah alam...heheh....sampai je kl sentral aku jumpa cu-ai,pastu kudut ngan pkah,pastu nuru ngan mashi....naik putra g kampung baru,jumpa kucai,meor ngan hasif....swonok gle....daa la baru 1st time aku g kampung baru...huhu....even jadi jakun jap kan bila nmpk klcc ngan kltower tym malam,tp overall best arr...huhu...pastu dpt lagi merasa solat kat masjid kg baru....swonoknya....huhu...pas bkak posa lepak kl sentral lak....rasa x puas sgt coz jumpe kejap je....aku sampai umah pun da kol 12 lbey...huhu....

Friday, September 12, 2008



time explorace kat bukit cerakah....best sgt saat tu....aku knal lebih rapat dgn kawan2 satu course yg b4 ni tak penah ckp pun...sronok coz aku rasa aku ada gk sedikit sebanyak contribute 4 this team even at the end,yg kitorg dapat juz penat n sluar yg kotor....haha....plg kesian adli,kna simbah ngan air....em,nk knalkan la kwn2 aku lam ni....yg kiri plg belakang tu,kaavin kumar...the only nonmalay lam grup ni...tp dia ni ramah gk,so tade la rasa kekok pun....sebelah tu farid.....dulu2,1st time aku knal dia kt cc,aku igt dia dak private...huhu....pastu baru aku tau dia sama mentor ngan aku....sebelah tu adli,ex-asis...ketua kumpulan ni....dia best arr,hyperactive maa...haha....pastu jidin,dak saser....nampak nerd tapi baik woo...huhu....pastu farah...ntah arr,tapi most of the time aku macam slalu je dpt satu grup ngan farah ni....then,sha...x knal sgt coz dia join kitorg pun da lmbt,hari prog tu baru dia dtg...pastu nadia....she speaks japanese maa....hihi....depan nadia tu nia (sama nama ngan bear aku)...dia ni penolong ketua kump....pun hyperactive gk,xtau penat....sampai satu tahap tu,adli tya dia,"ko makan steroid ke?"....erk..???sebelah nia amanda....cute attitude....ada satu kali tu kitorg kna blakon,dia jd baby...cara dia nangis,alololo...haha....plg depan kiri nabilah huda,dak lompat gk....selain housemate aku,aku agak rapat gak ngan dia...taktau arr nape leh rapat....maybe sebab dia antara classmate first yg ak knal kot....aku ska sgt manja2 ngan dia...tp dia suka cubit n cekik aku...huhu...pastu azhani...aku da story pasal dia ni lam previous blog,roomate aku....pastu nana....nana ni baik,tak berkira....heheh...n lastly nabilah....dak sbpikp....classmate aku gk....baik gak arr ngan aku...hmm,ni la few things bout kawan2 aku...

byk kawan aku dpt kat sini,tapi sku stil lagi rindu jenan...nape ek???kawan2 kat jenan tak sama dgn kawan2 kt tempat lain kn....emm,ari ni nk g bkak posa ngan dak jenan kt kg baru....waa,excited gle!!!!ngan nada,farah,bella,cu-ai,mashi,nuru,kaymucks,kucai...em,ada lg ke ha????last time la jumpa kucai b4 dia fly...x sabanya....hihi....

Friday, August 15, 2008

WHEN I FELL IN LOVE....







i wrote this actually on 26th july 2008...at 3.59am....in my study room....




for me, love is a gift from GOD to us. we have one of the beauty of life without having to buy it. can everyone be grateful please???huhu....what things are even much sweeter than love??what things are even more sincere than love???and what things are even much stupider than love???i've asked a few friends about loving someone and being loved by someone....and all of them said, "being loved is a lot sweeter than loving someone.." but the best is, when both come altogether at the same time...



and right now, at this very minute, i know i've fallen in love....

what are so damn great about love??it can make u do stupid,unexplained things. it can make u do nothing at all! it can even make u suffer. so,why take the risk??don't love, n u will live. but...love is somewhat a yinyang thing...and people would prefer to feelthe bitter sides of it as long as they are able to know the sweetness beyond the love. with love, even the stupidest,dumbest guy on earth would be willing to take the challenge.coz love makes people brave, n love shows how honest we are.

and right now, at this very minute, i know i've fallen in love.

we can love anyone we want, even without reasons, but we can't force anyone to love us. that's the biggest difference btw to love n being loved. and that is why we prefer the feeling of being loved, it is unexplainable, unimaginable....it comes all by itself n u have to experience it yourself. i can love anyone i want, but i can't make them love me back. it explains the unconditional part of love.

and at the age of 18, i've already own the greatest love a person could ever have....

  • my family...(pak,arwah mak,tok,abg e n family,kaknini,abg ein etc...)
  • friends that i love sooo much~wanie as nada fathi fizah jimah kirah apple najmi suhaimi zafri etc.....
  • a very special bestfriend God gave me~nadd....
  • and i do have the world's greatest love too...insyaALLAH....

my love towards them complete half of my life, n if they love me too, my life is totally complete....i need no more...huhu....(^_^)





Monday, August 11, 2008

ermmm.....


aku baru abes exam....dekat dua minggu gak la aku tak on9....adey,rindunya frenster n blogspot....huhu....
ni la gambar terbaru aku.....time dinner kat kedai makan kat seksyen2....aku nak balik wei....
rasanya kat sini je tak de cuti midsem...sadis siot...huhu....nk tungu raya baru ley balik...
aku tatau nk cerita apa sbnanya....life???takda apa yg best....eyt,aku tgk ayat2 cinta semalam...hahah....kawan2 aku ada yg nangis tapi bg aku besa je....tapi mmg tak sebest novel dia la kan...tapi aku tabik arr ngan kang abik ni....aku dah jatuh hati dgn novel2 dia....
mula2 aku minat ngan harry potter....pastu sydney sheldon...pastu kang abik ni lak...hm,apa yg aku ley conclude pasal diri aku....kalo aku minat sorang2 author tu,aku takkan baca buku author lain sampai la aku abeskan suma buku si author tu....skang ni aku ngah baca buku nicholas sparks,tapi all about love,x best sgt....huhu....
ermm.....pe lagi ek???aku rindu la kat jenan...kat kawan2....bila la ley jumpa balik,lepak2 cam dulu???kat sini ada murni nasirah n izat helmi,ex-jenan tym kita f1 dulu..pastu diorg kuar...izat helmi tu aku rasa ramai dak jenan yg ingat kn...murni tu ntah la korg ingat lg ke tak....
hm...exam aku truk arr....math,aku tak puas ati...x sempat abeskan....tapi dh x nangis cam dulu dh,sebab dh takda shoulder to lean on...hehe...bio en azlan pun dah cakap kurang memuaskan...adey....health science ntah la....tapi ley je di saat2 kritikal ari tu aku lupa simptom2 hepatitis....aiya,mangkuk2.....malaysian studies????jgn cita la....camna prestasi sejarah aku dulu,camtu la gk skang....bi aku plg bengang....blaja grammar je,skali kuar soklan,sampai sakit perut aku....huhu....saba jela kan...baru 1st tym...
em,sampai sini dulu....salam untuk rakan2 di luar sana....aku rindu kalian....

Friday, July 25, 2008

isk3....waaaaaaaaaaa....

kalo owg tgk previous blog aku mesti owg heran kan....pehal la ada tajuk je...isinya mana????huk3....meh nk cte.....ari tu aku ngah tulih blog kat cc....ngah khusyuk ni nulih.....letak gamba lagi....gamba housemate aku kat sni....pastu kan tb2 je suma computer kat cc tu shut down!!!arghhhh!!!!ilang abes suma.....wuhaaa......pastu aku pun da malas nk ngarang balik....nt arr aku rewrite k....aku nk share ngan korg....esp dak2 jenan....hihi....
aku bz sgt skg ni wei.....byk btol assignment....4hb ni stat midsem....sampai 9hb....dah arr blaja bio cam nk keja keta api....huk3....baru sebulan seminggu masuk sni dah 6 chapter abes....dah arr aku ni kalo bio weng sket....tajuk susah lak tu....esp respiration ngan photosynthesis....slamat otak aku tak pecah tau....heheh....nk hafal nama2 produk n proses tu bukan sng....alahai.....susah2....sni ramai dak pandai....kat mana la agaknya kedudukan aku kan....
pastu tambah lg dugaan utk aku....henpon kesayangan aku.....waaaa......henpon abg aku bg sebab dapat 8a.....waaa.....udah nggak boley digunakan.....waaaaaa.....aku g rendam dlm air time nk basoh baju.....waaa.....suma ni salah nadirah hasanah osman!!! haha.....dia anta msg kasi gamba ikan tanda fwenship....kalo nk fwenship berkekalan,masukkan lam ayer so dat ikan tu ley idop....waaa.....nad!!!! kan aku dah wat btol2!!!! huk3....akibatnya beloved daddy aku ckp no,"no henpon till october!" waa.....sunyi la aku.....tapi tgk arr,kalo dapat elaun nt...ehem2....kot2 arr nk wat benda jahat ke kan....
ish3...astaghfirullahalazim....apa ni shiela???!!!
rindu jenan la plak....hmm....

Sunday, July 13, 2008

housemates fmsku.....

aku dan adibah hanis zainudin...org terengganu,exmrsm jasin....dieba ni mengingatkan aku pada jimah....haha....bkn sbb apa,tp kalo dia msk lab,mesti ada la smthg yg akan brlaku....cm jimah dulu la....termometer la,iodine la....dieba ni pun kategori tu gk....huhu....dieba ni ska merempat katil aku...taktau la apa yg best kt situ....huhu....bg aku dia penah wat bnda bodo tau....haha....pg td,time aku ngah tdo atas lantai,dia datang duduk kat hujung kepala aku,pastu dia tgk je aku tido...ada la kat stgh jam....pelik arr kan???ntah pape...huhu...tapi aku ley ckp yg dieba ni manusia yg ssh nk berkira....baik la...haha...
nur arini mat daud....orang first yg aku knal kat sini....lg sorg kawan aku yg ada kembar,tp kembar dia ni seiras....antara kitorg 8 org,result spm dia la plg gempak,str8 a1....yg lain at least mesti ada la slack 1....org ktan,exmrsm jeli....nini ni sgt la baik....dia support je apa org cakap....haha.....tp kdg2 tu ada gk berlaku miscommunication ngan dia....bila aku ckp utara,dia pyh sket nk phm...huhu....

ni elora sanders rowin....asal sarawak,skola dulu mrsm kk....skang tinggal kat kl....dia ni keturunan bidayuh....akhirnya ada gk la kawan aku sorg kaum peribumi kan....ngehehe....el ni pun baik...dia ada kembar lelaki,hillary....kat umah kitorg leh kata dia la yg plg pakar bab2 dapur ni....yg lain ilmu cukup2 makan je....haha.....el ni pun dah kapel,ngan org sabah kot tak silap....aku suka tgk muka dia sbnanya....dia lawa kn...hihi....


ni lak ain nasyrah mohd sukari kot.....ngehehe....aku lupa lak nama bapak dia....tapi kat sini kitorg panggil dia dolly....dalam umah aku,aku ngan dia je bdk sbp...dia sms pasir puteh....dia la yg awal2 dulu dah accident kna lggr keta....huhu...tapi ada hikmah gk peristiwa tu...since kejadian tu,aku rasa kitorg suma lg rapat....dolly ni sporting gk arr,dah kapel ngan dak mckk....aku rasa best arr kawan ngan dia....hihi....mayb sebab asal usul sama kot....cewah~




nurul azhani mohd ahkar nawawi....housemate aku....roomate aku gak....dia ni sgt la lembut....alahai.....hehe.....budak johor,ex mrsm jasin.....em,dia baik la....kategori low profile gk arr....tak tau la awat,tp dia mengingatkn aku kt indah....hm...
alyaa liyana idris....housemate aku....classmate aku....org utara cam aku,tp dia kat kedah....em....alyaa ni camna ek???overall,aku ley kata dia ni cam ada 2 personaliti la....kat klas lain,kat umah lain....haha....cam,dia pandai bawak diri arr lbey kurang....kat klas baik tahap cipan arr,tapi kat umah,kita cam susah nak caya yg dia tu alyaa kat klas...huhu...paham ke???dia ni ex mrsm beseri,dkt arr ngan umah aku....gamba ni time kitorg 1 umah mkn sama2 kat sek 2.....alyaa,swonok kawan ngan hg....cm siot...haha....

yg takda lam gamba,nurul shahida zahar....dia ni kalo amik gamba suka tgk tmpt lain...tu pyh sket nk amik gamba dia....huhu....aku bgga tau,sbb org pertama yg shida bg hadiah besday adlah kat aku....waa...terharunya....ngehehe....shida ni sgt common ngan gelaran api....sbbnya biarla kitorg je yg tau....lg 1,trademark umah aku...supit surgery....hak3....heheh....shida ni bdak kl,em smbndr baru bangi kot....huhu....
ni la serba sedikit cita pasal housemate aku....k arr,nk g mlantak...tata~































Wednesday, July 2, 2008

gosh....

alamak.....since masuk msu ni,baru 1st time eh aku tulih....
adei...slalu je takda masa tau....klas aku ari2 abes paling awal kol 4.....
balik2 je aku mesti tido ngan penuh kepenatan....
huhu....cian aku kan....
haha..tapi kena arr besakan diri....
ni pun aku curi2 masa tulih blog,padahal kna cari info pasal assignment utk health science.....huhu....
penat!letih!capek!
em....ari ni housemate aku,dolly accident....aku tak da la rapat sgt ngan dia.....
tapi terasa la gak kn,coz benda tu jadi kat org sekeliling aku....
kalo la jadi kat housemate aku yg lain.....hm....ntah arr....
kat az ke,nini ke,alyaa ke,el ke,dieba ke,shida ke....
diorg ni jela yg rapat ngan aku....
huhu....
aku tak byk masa ni....
juz nk make sure je blog aku di update gk....
kay ar....tata...

Saturday, June 14, 2008

EMBUN...


















"specially dedicated to my friends who are always in need and in deed..."



"Aku suka pada embun,"dia tersenyum,memandangku yang sedang keliru.



"Embun?Pelik bunyinya."



Dia mengangkat kening,"Mengapa? Kerana aku suka pada sesuatu yang biasa?"



"Jadi,ada simboliknya?"senyumannya melebar.



"Simboliknya...kita!"aku semakin keliru.



"Apa istimewanya pada setitis embun?"



Dia sekadar mengukir senyuman,"Sangat istimewa! Sebagaimana kau yang sangat istimewa buatku."



"Embun,muncul di tengah malam...apbila dinihari,ia tersejat oleh si matahari. Embun itu tidak teguh,apabila muncul cahaya,ia menghilang. Begitukah kau ibaratkan persahabatan kita?"aku tidak puas hati.



"Kau sendiri tahu,betapa aku hargai persahabatan kita. Masakan aku berfikir begitu!"senyumannya semakin menghangatkan hatiku.



"Jadi,berterus-terang saja!"dia tetap tersenyum,terus tersenyum sehingga akhirnya senyuman itu kabur sendiri di pandanganku. Dan aku terus dibawa kembali ke alam realiti.



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Aku rindu akan saat-saat itu. Saat aku masih dapat tersenyum dengannya. Saat aku masih dapat bertukar cerita dengannya. Saat aku dan dia masih mampu bergelak ketawa. Namun,dalam sekelip mata,keindahan yang kurasa hilang tiba-tiba. Akukah yang salah? Kerana terlalu mengikut emosi lantas aku tinggalkan dia dengan juraian air mata? Masih akukah yang salah? Kerana tagihkan hak aku sebagai sahabatnya? Tetap akukah yang salah? Apabila kau berdiam tanpa sebarang kata? Akhirnya di sinilah aku,berteleku sendirian mengenangkan tindakanku. Entah mengapa,hatiku diburu rasa bersalah membiarkan dia begitu. Kata-kataku terakhirku terngiang kembali di legar telinga.



"Terima kasih kerana kau fahamkan aku erti embun pada persahabatan kita."



Hatiku keras,terlalu terguris dengan tindakannya. Lantas aku bertindak kaku tatkala pipinya dihujani air mata.



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15 JULAI 2007...



Tiga bulan lalu,aku hampir separuh gila. Tiga bulan lalu,hidupku hilang tuju dan hala. Tiga bulan lalu,aku dilanda kemarau derita. Dan tiga bulan kemudian,syukurlah hidupku kembali bercahaya. Aku kembali ke laluan mustaqim,daerah kebenaran yang senantiasa membimbingku mencari sinar sebenar. Warkah bersampul biru menjadi kekuatanku hari ini. Warkah yang kutatap saban malam sebelum tidur. Warkah itu yang menjadi pendorong aku menjadi aku yang baru. Dan saat ini,warkah itu kutatap lagi. Dengan tangan yang sedikit menggeletar,aku leraikan lipatan sehelai kertas lusuh. Buat kesekian kalinya,susunan perkataan membentuk ayat yang amat mencengkam jiwa itu kubaca.



"Dengan nama ALLAH Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Mengasihani,



Harapanku agar DIA Yang Maha Agung melindungi kau,sahabatku tatkala warkah ini menjadi tatapanmu. Ketahuilah sahabatku,walau apa sekalipun tanggapan kau terhadapku,aku harap dengan sehelai kertas ini,aku mampu membersihkan semula lumpur yang sedikit terpalit pada persahabatan kita. Oleh itu,harapan terakhirku untukmu,tataplah surat ini sehingga ke noktah terakhir. Kau,sahabat yang aku kenali dalam jangka masa yang singkat,namun entah mengapa aku begitu mudah akrab denganmu. Kau sahabat terbaik yang pernah aku kenali. Kau sahabat yang sentiasa di sisiku dalam suka mahupun duka. Jika aku menangis,kau juga akan mengalir air mata. Jika aku gembira,kau juga akan turut ketawa. Sebelum aku mengenalimu,embun sekadar setitis embun. Muncul di tengah malam dan hilang apabila cahaya menjelma. Namun,segalanya berubah apabila engkau kukenali. Embun yang dahulunya tiada makna umpama hidup dalam satu nafas yang sama denganku kini. Embun itu suci,sesuci hubungan kita. Kau dan aku bertemu atas seutas tali takdir kerana ketentuan-NYA. Embun itu muncul di tengah malam. Tatkala dunia seakan berhenti,embun akan muncul menemani si daun. Tatkala aku dirundung duka,kau pasti sentiasa di sisi memberi semangat. Sahabat,terima kasih atas itu. Embun itu menghilang apabila muncul cahaya. Kau tahu,kelihatannya ia lemah,namun selemah manapun si embun,ia pasti akan terbit jua keesokannya. Begitulah aku ibaratkan persahabatan kita,walau apa jua cabaran yang bakal mendatang,tiada apa yang mampu menghalang embun persahabatan kita untuk muncul semula. Aku bersyukur dipertemukan denganmu. Maafkan aku kiranya tindakan aku merahsiakan penyakit yang menjadi sahabatku sebelum aku menemuimu itu tidak kau senangi. Kerana bagi aku,walau kematian sekalipun tidak dapat memutuskan ikatan antara kita yang terbina atas nama DIA Yang Maha Mencipta Kematian. Akhir kata,maafkan aku sebagaimana aku telah memaafkanmu. Selagi embun menitis,selagi itu persahabatan kita bernyawa. Wassalam."