Wednesday, October 17, 2018

#254

Hmm..


Are there people who would still be reading blogs, and writing blogs?


I will never have the heart to delete this blog, but to find the time and the passion to start writing again is such a tough job. I am just super tired and super lazy nowadays. I will just let it be here, I will re-visit this site from time to time. This site was the witness to my growth, my ups and downs.


It isn't an understatement when I am saying that I am lost nowadays. Maybe I did overthink more than most, but honestly, I feel lost. I did what I am doing because I needed to do something. But I am doing things without purpose. I don't have anything like future plans or anything of that sort. I am just living from day to day basis.


Is it a good thing or a bad one? No idea.


I filtered out people as well. I am disappointed with people and hence I threw them away. I kind of assumed that some people who used to be important to me are having a blessed life right now and they are happy even without me in it. I kind of assumed I don't need those people who do not need me.


I am becoming toxic but I do want to get a hold of my life. I have been a follower. I was afraid of doing something I wanted to but shouldn't have, I was afraid to walk against the norm, but I want to find the little bits of happiness and contentment in myself. I want to do things I want to do, even if it means I might regret the decision later.


Life has changed so much even without us realizing it. But the life we are living, is it the kind of life that we are enjoying? Is it the kind of life that when we look back later we would be able to smile and say, "I lived a satisfying life?"