aishhh...

ske btul aku baca blogz org...

huhu...

tgk2 org merepek...

aku nak merepek tade idea arr plak...

urm...aku baru dapat result ntuk sem2...

alhamdulillah,syukur sgt2 even tade arr bgos gler pun....

aku rase kan life aku ni cam bowink je kan...

nmpk nerd ke kalo aku kte aku ske lyn perasaan sorg2 instead of enjoy ngan kwn2???

saat plg bebas bg aku bila aku kuar sorg2,n ley g memana je aku ska...

xyah nk pk2 nk ikut org...

ritu kan,25 feb...

konon arr,nak reward myself sebab dpt result yg ok...

so aku pun bgn pg dgn niat nak g mid sorg2...

n mana arr aku tau rapid u80 tuh da tukar route...

da ta masuk kl sentral tp benti kat dpn kl monorail tuh...

bila smpai situ aku wat dono jela,sedar2 dah sampai pasar seni...

adei....terpaksa lak carik ikhtiar nak patah balik...

dah arr aku ta besa lg g situ...huhu...

aku ni pun sengal,time beli tiket putra aku dgar org depan aku kte nk g kl sentral,so tnpa tgk kat mana2, aku menonong je ikut org dpn aku tu...

tb2 je aku dah sampai kt masjid jamek!!!

adush,tersilap naik putra la plak...

tu la shiela..naif sgt ikut org...

terpaksa trun kat situ naik putra ke klsntral...

akhirnya slmt gak aku smpai mid...

aku tgk the curious case of benjamin button...

besh...ada part yg aku gelak..ada gak parts yg tbe2 je air mata meleleh...

pastu aku beli chocolate indulgence...lme da ngidam nih...

maklum la,perlis ne ada scret recipe kn...

pastu lepak mph...

aku beli advencer si peniup ney nukilan faisal tehrani...

nak balik tu plak ujan lebat gle...

jln nk g bus stop tu,ada la 4,5 keta yg tak berperikemanusiaan menghambur aku ngan air ujan...

huhu...separuh basah la gak bila aku naik bas tuh...

dlm 8.20 smpai mais...8.30 kalat2 nak solat mgrb...slmat isya' x masok lg even mghrb aku tu mgrb gajah...!!

...feeling empty...

i don't really know what to write, how to really express my feeling...i am feeling empty...i don't know how do i really feel...i forgot how to express my feelings...i forgot how to comfort everyone around me...i forgot how to love!! i used to look at the green plants all around me...whenever i opened the window of my bedroom, there are so much things nature had offered me...and when i am away from home,i hate to think that somehow i am going to forget all those things...i am growing in this kind of world, i won't surprise to learn that i am going to be heartless...i hardly have time to smile and laugh and worry about nothing (unless u count the 1-hour watching 'miss no good')...i always cry without even knowing the concrete reasons of the tears...i cried because i don't know what else to do... i've watched this one drama,and there's this one scene...when he thought that his life is at stake,he thought that his life could't even be worse,and he almost gave up on his career and family...he told his friend, his life is like driving a car,he was so obsessed of the speed,and suddenly he could't control his beloved car,and the next second he was trapped in his car in a lake...he loved his car,but the car killed him...he tried to get out of the car,but he couldn't...his friend told him...take the car to the base of the lake,where the pressure inside the car will be equal to the pressure of the lake,then only you can open the door...no matter what,you have to reach bottom....it made me realise somehow...i have no idea whether my life is at bottom or not...but as long as i could breath the fresh air,there is never too late to wake up again...i can't give up just because i want to...i can't start a new life without abandoning the old one and i don't really think i have the guts to let go of everything...the only solution is...it's not the life i have to start as new, it's myself after all....

cheer up u girl!!!wink* coQ thingy...

tungu rapid tepi jalan...adoi...
they cheered me up though...

my clan...uh-huh..???

sir azlan handsomeee....weee~

penat wooo kutip sampah...ahaks!!

love the background...suddenly its sooo blue...

revo is undoubtedly always with me...anywhere...anywhen...anyhow...

*love is in the air*

we called this womanizer style...huhu

alang with adik n achik...

>>THE END FOR TODAY<<

bla bla bla...

kay....

skang aku rasa nak merepek...

nak merepek puas2...

nak tulis pe je yg aku terpikir skg....

aku tatau apa patut aku pikir nie....

wawawa.,...

sadisnye shiela oii....

sumtimes aku rasa fedup dgn dunia...

well,terlampau sgt kot...not dunia exactly...

but some parts of it....

i hate to see people go on...and i am still here....

aku susah nak trima nape people change that easy...

as if aku x penah knal diorang b4 ni...

WTF???

huhu.....aku sdar one thing skang ni...

reading novels,esp works of sidney sheldon n dan brown...

instead of bagi aku ilmu yg baik,ada gak benda x baik aku dapat...

i am talking about my vocabulary rite now!!!

so full of dirty words i guess....eeeew!!!

ok,back to the real topic here...

kalo aku tya kawan2 aku skg ni...pe cer???!!!

aku takkan terkejut kalo aku dapat news yg mengejutkan...

pe aku tulih ni???tp btol la...

coz every single person on earth is moving on!!!

they are not living in secondary school anymore!!!

they are teenagers now!!!

and so am I!!!!

but i am still right here....

huk3...

moving with the same velocity as before...

n not having enough guts to accelerate...

this is sooo like meee....

i used to regret of every single decisions i've made...

so is now...but i tried to ignore what i should ignore...

how can it be so damn difficult to understand i've came to a point of no return????

hello shiela!!!wake up girl!!!

don't think anyone can ever understand pe benda la aku merepek sorg2 ni....

tp can i say that i despised myself?????

is it too hard to accept what i've already got??

i am typical human being....

jealous is what made me...

gotta get out i guess...

how where n when i dunno....

owh my God...

does everyone really need to change???

that's one thing i hate about growing up...

why does life is so unexpected???

people change as time passes by...

will their memories change too???

will they forget the past???

will they forget what made their life now???

will they...????

i am frustrated + suffocated in this kind of atmosphere...

suddenly i felt that i'd lost my passion in writing....

and i kinda hate that...

but thank God, i still love words...

am i changing too anyway???