you are 19!

happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to shiela~
happy birthday to you~

uh-huh...it's 25th of august,it's 4th of ramadhan and it's my birthday...
it's been exactly 19 years i've celebrated this day, though kecik2 dulu xde makna apa pun hari ni...eheh...
and of all the 19 birthdays i've been through,some touched my heart so deeply that i could never forget forever-except if i'm going to be diagnosed with alzheimer ke amnesia ke satu ari nanti lah kan...(mintak jauh!!)

the one yg paling lama i could remember-i've already forgotten what year it was, but the detail was still fresh laa...the one yang i kept nagging to beloved,late mother;-
"knape orang lain bila sambut birthday buat jamuan semua??kita tak buat apa2 pun??"
and of course la now i knew why,but as for mom,maybe aku dah hurt her feelings kan by saying that...gosh,if only i could say sorry again to you~ and to make up for that,she bought two packs of koew teow,goreng the koew teow,and we-me,daddy,mom and abang-ate together..as for the still small shiela, it satisfied me enough...and mom gave me a cute alarm clock,shaped like a penguin wearing that convo hat and she said;-
"nanti adik jadi pandai macam penguin ni.."
and i broke that alarm in 2003,jatuh dari katil double decker kt andeka..huhu~

since then, i could never really remember my birthday being celebrated in a way it should be celebrated...kat sekolah rendah,usually kawan2 akan hadiahkan pensil ke,pemadam ke,buku memo ke-that sort of things la-tp dapat tu mmg hepi gile!! then on my 9th birthday,kat kelas 3 anggerik,gile pagi in the morning lah,i got the first birthday present that i could never forget; a yellow music box yg ada gambar pikachu..from naimah..ada lagi smpai sekarang though dah bertaun bateri abes...thanks ye naimah,so sorry to have lost contact with you...

then 2004..kat Jenan ada the culture kena taboh time birthday...tapi aku tak penah kena,sbb my birthdays were always on holidays...haihh...that year,dgn abg pegi rumah abg E,sbb every members of the family was there,kakak baru lepas convo...and they gave me a surprise birthday party...abg bagi buku harry potter (initiated my minat to the series,thanks abg!),lis bg bekas letak pensil,lissa bg pencil box,kak ninie bg bekas letak pensil jugak,mak wan bagi baju,abg E and kak ida sponsor kek,kfc,pizza and kasi rm200...

2006...still,my birthday fell on a holiday...but this time, i attended the nadwah kepimpinan islam kat Jets with asiah,zatil,yan,ustzh salwana and 4 boys. and for the first time, thanks to idea jahat asiah, i was being taboh dekat Jets, komplot antara 3 sekolah; Jenan,Jets and Saina...haih...head and face fulled of bedak, dorang pakaikan lagi aku dgn karpet and penyapu and they took pics of me! mmg sejibik cam the wicked witch lah masa tu...and coming back to Jenan, asiah,zatil and yan baked me a chocholate cake dekat dm...(nasib yan ajk makanan,dpt guna dapur kan..) thanks buddies,though thanks is just never enough to show how those days really mean to me...

2008...first birthday ouf of JENAN, it was Monday,hm puasa sunat lahh...syukur,sempat jugak reach 18..dekat kelas,they sang me lagu birthday, and balik umah lepak kejap bilik alyaa,dolly and ell...smpai laa azan maghrib,teguk air sket and still lepak situ...dolly,kite watpe eh??xingat daa...and suddenly,the light went out,and there was a cake with candles,and my seven housemates...owh,terharu x terkata la time tu,mcm dolly ckp, time tu bukan mesra mana lagi pun...but you all did remember!! thanks sgt2!!

and this year,the 19th one...two days before, i dreamt a dream..that i forgot my own birthday,and everyone else forgot too,and i just remembered the next day,and it was too late,and i was like...dissapointed gile..because of that,i did not really expect la anyone to wish me today..but then the first wish came as early as 11:54pm..and wishes kept coming in dkat skrin handphone and laptop...thanks ye,to those who remember...yg sms; Jimah Idah Adlee Asiah Wanie Dolly As Abang Aina Mira Alyaa Zatil Nada Kharique Shihan Sue Suhaila Dieba Fadhila Kak Lin & Kak Fadzilah... yg call; Ya Fizah Azhani... yg wish kat friendster and facebook; Fadz A'in Husna Kamarul Shafiq Shafiq again (shasha) Amar Afiq Nasir Noliy Eddie Bob Lenn Murni Azwan Cikgu Pe'ah Apple & Eha...

and pasal wish dari Kharique...one guy yg dah lama x contact, 2 months?or more?and he didn't even know my birthday...and he said,hati dia tergerak nak sms hari ni,dia ckp dia rasa bersalah sbb lama x contact,and i was like...whoaa,why today??ko mcm tau2 je hari ni besday aku!! and he was like...erk??yeke???sumpa aku tak tau...huhu...
and maybe this one kot yg plg terharu...hee~

and waiting....waiting....waiting....wishes from Kirah,Suhaimi,Najmi and Mashi...korang x ingat ke???haha...

and nak sentuh jugak pasal esok...it's going to be 26th August and 5th Ramadhan...so much of a kebetulan lah...haih...