#213

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Mengasihani.

Hm. Nak belajar membaca dan menulis balik. Semoga Allah permudahkan. 

Malam ni rasa macam free sikit. Fuhh. Bahaya sangat la bila ada masa terluang ni. Ringan je tangan nak klik link yang bukan2. Huhu. T__T 

You know how when people talk about love, they used to say things like, "I will die of a broken heart." "I'm heartbroken." Or things similar to that? I learnt of a disease that is connected to a broken heart. A rare disease called Takotsubo cardiomyopathy. Or a broken-heart syndrome.

Hari ni belajar satu lagi syndrome. You know when people in love used to say things like, "You made my heart skip a beat."? Well, there's a syndrome called sick sinus syndrome. In this syndrome, you heart does skip a beat. Or beats. Eheh. I think it's so cool to relate love with diseases. Eheh. 

Seronok sangat bila masuk clinical year ni. Dapat deal directly dengan patients. Dapat belajar banyak sangat benda dengan Polish people. Orang2 Poland ni sangat rajin dan sangat pandai, yang melimitkan dorang just bahasa perantaraan. Kebanyakannya kat Poland ni study dalam bahasa dorang sendiri. Banyak je doktor2 kat sini yang buat segala macam researches and publish books, tapi in Polish. Dan dorang ni sangat eager untuk berkongsi ilmu dan mengajar kita. 

Alhamdulillah sangat dipilih Allah untuk ke Poland. Banyak sangat diri sendiri berubah since datang Poland ni. I will just gonna keep rambling about stupid stuffs if I continue writing, so I better stop here. 

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This is another random entry. Sorry that it's random. Eheh. 

#212 - randomly written.

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful.

It's 20th of November 2012, 6th of Muharram 1434, 9:41pm.

Dear you (who are reading) and myself (who is writing),

I'm heartbroken today. Period. 

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Dear you (who are reading) and myself (who is writing),

Let's be mature for a short minute and talk about something serious. Globally serious. It's all over the world; as in literally all over the world. In Facebook, people are talking about Gaza. In twitter. Hundreds of blogs. Demonstrations were held in many places throughout the globe. Even in Warsaw. It shows that this Palestine-Israel conflict is no longer a religious issue between Muslims-Jewish. It's a humanity issue. Quoting a friend's post on Facebook; 

"You don't need to be a muslim to pray for Gaza. You just need to be a human. Have some mercy."

And I personally believe that the victory is going to be ours soon. This is not a new issue. It's been going on for decades. Let's pray and hope together that whatever we feel towards Gaza and the Palestinians as a whole is not a just a fling, a short-lasting feeling that will eventually fade away. We are indebted towards them the Palestinians. Baitul Maqdis is not something that belongs to the Palestinians; it belongs to the Muslims. Yet we let them fight for it and what do we do outside the ring? Do we even have the slightest effort to care about what's going on?

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Dear you (who are reading) and myself (who is writing),

It doesn't feel right to talk about myself today, because I completely realize that the world doesn't just revolve around me. But, somehow I just realize that I'm changing, thanks to the world's most retardest bestest friend who happens to be my best friend. And soulmate in a way. :) 

Alhamdulillah, praise and gratitude to Allah. Being a 4th year is hard, tiring, stressful and busy. Yet, I enjoy my life right now more than my first three years in Poland. :) The tarbiyah directly from above is also getting harder, but it gets us one step closer to Him.

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#211 - Happy New Hijrah Year!! ^_^

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Mengasihani.

Assalamualaikum wbt. ^_^

Bagus la kalau sibuk. Sekurang-kurangnya, masa kita tak banyak habis buat benda2 lagha yang entah apa2. Bagus la kalau sibuk. Masa kita terisi sepenuhnya. Bagus la kalau sibuk. Nanti dekat Mahsyar bila ditanya Allah sudah ada alasan konkrit untuk apa masa kita digunakan. 

Tapi tak bagus juga bila sibuk. Tak bagus untuk orang yang tak pandai organize masa sendiri. Dan bila tak pandai atur masa sendiri, maka hampir sebulan jugak la blog ni kena abandoned. Huhu. I'm so sorry http://shielasaad.blogspot.com/. I am at fault. T__T Masuk tahun keempat tak stress mana, cuma penat melampau sikit la. Sibuk. Dan terkejut dengan kesibukan yang tiba2. Masih menyesuaikan diri dengan definisi sibuk itu sendiri. Semoga Allah permudahkan, insyaAllah.

Kalau tak kerana message mengejut seorang sahabat di Facebook pagi tadi, agaknya blog ni masih penuh sawang dan habuk. Jazakillah khairan katheera untuk sahabat itu. Allah mengirim dia untuk memberi teguran secara halus ke atas diri ini. :)

Kepada yang sibuk, tak kisah la betul2 sibuk atau merasakan diri sibuk atau sibuk menyibukkan diri, at some points, berhenti sejenak dan pandanglah sekeliling. Dunia ini bukan cuma ada kita. Ada manusia lain yang sama2 mendiami bumi. Hidup bukan sekadar perlu peduli diri sendiri. Hidup juga untuk saling membantu dan saling mengisi. 

Untuk saudara2 di Palestin, Syria, Rohingya...seluruh dunia amnya. Semoga Allah memberkati setiap satu perbuatan kita. Semoga perbuatan kita tidak menjadi penyebab kita terlempar ke dalam neraka. Semoga perbuatan kita Allah kira sebagai ibadat yang memberatkan timbangan pahala. Biarlah kita dilontar kata2 kesat, batu mahupun peluru, Allah ada bersama kita. 

Percaya pada janji Allah, yang kemenangan itu semakin mengahampiri. Persiapkan diri. Perbaiki diri. Agar nanti kita mampu sama mendabik dada berkata, kemenangan ini, aku juga ada saham di dalamnya!

Happy New Hijrah Year!! ^_^ 1 Muharram 1434H. 

#210

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

It's a good thing that blogspot doesn't allow us to record and post screams and yells, because my blog would have been flooded with that if it does. 

Today was a day mixed with thousands of feelings, but I guess the day ends nicely. 

I used to doubt people's promises. I doubted whether they meant it when they promised. I doubted whether they would fulfill whatever they promised. There have been, not one but more people, breaking their promises to me. And so it was hard for me to trust people. As a whole. But someone changed that, and I just realised it today. Because I trusted her promise, I am able to control my emotions and be the rational me. Yes, she changed me in a way and I am grateful that Allah sent her to me. 

Tarbiyyah also changed me a lot.

Narshiela Saad now is different from Narshiela Saad three years ago. Thanks to Poland. Thanks to all my sisters in islam here. Thanks to my beloved housemates. Thanks for the usrah every week; the daurah and the jaulah. Most importantly, to Allah who led me to this path. 

I changed. And I'm happy with the changes. Alhamdulillah. I want everyone that I love to feel what I've been feeling. Allah, please guide them to You. 

"If Allah desires good for someone, He gives him understanding in the deen. Knowledge is gained by learning." -hadith Bukhari & Muslim.

#209 - .....

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum wbt. 

My heart feels dry. There is too much duniawi in it, I believe. 

My heart feels dirty. There is too much jahiliyyah in it, I believe.

But people are never too late unless they are dying, aren't they?

We can change. We have the capabilities to change. Allah is The Most Adl of All. He wouldn't give us something we aren't able to face.

And reminding myself, quoting Hlovate, "Al-Quran is the best balm." It keeps you calm. It guides you through the darkest night before the dawn. 

Yes, people go through ups and downs. People are not perfect, that's why we don't worship people. 

I have flaws, but I am trying to be as good as I am capable of, because they are people out there, around me, that need me to keep trying.

I have flaws. Correct me when I'm wrong. For whatever flaws you see in me, see it as Narshiela Saad's flaws because she is a weak human that still needs guidance to be better. Please do not see it as a Muslim's flaws because my religion is perfect and it is me that haven't been able to practice my religion as a whole. 

I feel empty. And yes, al-Quran is the best balm. Indeed.

"Only in the remembrance of Allah that the heart will find tranquility."