...i tried...

...don't blame me please...

...i did try to be positive...

...i did try to see the bright side of life...

...i did try to enjoy every single breathe i'm still able to inhale...

...i did try to stay happy in front of people...

...i did try to do everything according to plans...

...i did try!! very hardly...

...but...

...i'm tired of trying...

...it's not that i gave up, no!!...

...i'm just tired being someone who is not me...

...u made me think; deeply...

...about who i really am...

....about how i was so damn happy before to play with emotions...

...and now it seemed as if i've lost a part of my soul...

...shit...

...love...

...i'm scared i'm going to forget how does it feel...

...how it was a huge part of me before...

...i'm scared i'll forget how to love...

...i'm scared of being alone...

...and i'm scared of thinking it that way...

...jade and trisy...

...will i find my eternal happiness as you two find yours??...

...jade...

...will i be able to pursuit my dream as you have already done??...

...trisy...

...will i be able to turn over a new leaf the way you find yourself??...

I WILL, WON'T I??