Monday, August 30, 2010

Start Fresh!

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Mengasihani.
30th August, 20th Ramadhan 1431, 10:17pm Malaysia time.

"There's no use crying over spilt milk."

Instead, it's much better to make a new cup of milk rather than wasting time crying.

I've been wasting too much time. Crying. Mourning. Whining. Wondering. It's been harder when I lost the right to ask the 'why' question. It's been more difficult that I have noone to blame for what has been happening to me, not even the fate. It's been a lot more torturous when i decided to talk about the skeleton that i've been keeping so safe in the closet to another living, breathing soul.

And after all the wasted time I've been through, then only I realised. Living without having hope and faith in a greater power, will definitely result in disastrous outcome. You will feel like ending your own life. You will start blaming every single thing that has been happening. You will feel like there's no meaning to live. You'll get lost, unable to reach out to the light that has been showing you the way all this while.

And again.
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

I seek help only from You. I seek forgiveness only from You. I'm asking for mercy only from You. I am dependent only to You. You are the One blessing me with the happiness of being in love, and there is definitely noone I should love more than You.

"Or (the unbelievers' state) is like the depths of darkness in a vast deep ocean, overwhelmed by billow topped by billow, topped by (dark) clouds: depths of darkness, one above another: if a man stretches out his hand, he can hardly see it! FOR ANY TO WHOM ALLAH GIVETH NOT LIGHT, THERE IS NO LIGHT."- 24:40

Start fresh. Move on. There's no guaranty that everything will be fine at the end of the day, but have faith that Allah is watching every single things we did or we'll be doing. And Allah will definitely pay us back in the exact same amount. Being too attached to the stupid, sorrow matters are just too tiring you'll use up all your energy. Sometimes, you have to give it all to move a step forward. Even so, a step taken with the courage and determination is way better than thousands steps taken while running away from the painful reality.

2 comments:

as eleyana said...

what is actually happening dear.. seringkali kita menangis meratap terlalu lama pada pintu yg tertutup hinggakan pintu lain yg terbuka juga tertutup tatkala kita mula sedar. so jgn tggu lama2.. kebahagiaan tuh ada kt mana2.. selagi Allah masih menguji, kita patut bersyukur coz itu menunjukkan dia masih syg kita. take care always.. i do love you..

sHieLa said...

thanks dear. i love you too! heee~